The profs at grad school, that is. They say to take one day off a week. "You need it!" they say.
But who has time for sabbaths?? I teach all week during the days, grade every evening, do homework somewhere inbetween, so weekends are my only time to apply for jobs which I MUST DO. So yesterday, I graded blogs, and today, I'm trying to bust out another application.
But it is sunny in Seattle, and everyone is out enjoying it. One friend's facebook status update is: "Carly is rollerblading, longboarding, and biking on Alki beach with the girls."
I was invited. I turned her down to work on the application. I could be at Alki right now, getting a sunburn and riding my bike. I CAN'T STAND IT.
I saw another friend at church. "Kickball this afternoon, Greta!" he said. I turned him down. "Have to work on an application...!"
BAAAAAAH.
I am all woebegone.
The problem is, I AM still trying to pack in stuff with friends around everything else, which means that, at present: I am tired and grumpy. Last night was dinner and drinks out with friends, and it was a blast, and I did not get enough sleep.
And I tried napping but felt guilty for not working. And so still: I am grumpy. And resentful for not getting Sunday fun. And clearly, blogging instead of working on an application because of aforementioned grumpiness and distraction.
They tell us to take a Sabbath. "You need it!" they say. I need it.
But when??
1 comment:
Ditto.
I love all the teacher books that have sections on making sure you have "me time" and that you don't stress yourself out - right after hundreds of pages of unrealistically high expectations.
Sometimes I want to ask, "Do you want me to do my job, or be relaxed and refreshed? They aren't both going to happen."
Hope you found some time anyway though.
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